i wish i m an angel

sometimes i really feel that i m bad, very bad

in chinese i ll say is 邪恶

although i already tried to make myself become wiser

but sometimes, especially for those i care, i cant control my emotion anymore...

i really hope that i hav no heart

no feeling, no sadness, no happiness...

mayb tat ll be good for every1 included me...

mayb u dun noe me well may think tat i m quite ok

but i noe myself

although an angel has started growing up in my heart

the evil still alive

i really cant chase the evil away

mayb i jus tat evil

the moral i learnt, the unfair reality. So CRUEL!

watching pao mo zhi xia...

i really indulged in it...

i noe, ou chen also lack of love

but wat he caused when he fight for his love?

well, mayb u ll tell me love cannot be shared

but i really cant accept his selfishness

for his own satisfactory, he make how many people in great pain?

i like luo xi

mayb is jus because of sympathy

but xia mo love luo xi, luo xi love xia mo

i saw xia mo smile from her heart when getting along with luo xi but not ou chen

y?

i really hope that the ending i found is not true

but since i watched till episode 9

the probability become lower and lower :'(

really really stunned when i first read the ending

really really feel sad for them when i first read the ending

i feel wanna cry

if the P1 WIMAX is not so LOUSY i sure will cry

should i thank to P1???!!!

i dun wan luo xi leave

why reality is so unfair?

why he did nothing wrong but still have to suffer so much?

arhhhhhhhhh

i really wanna cry liao

cry for my luo xi T.T

can any1 go save his life?

nobody

now my lapii hot like hell

even typing english lack like snail

forgive my poor english and bear wit it kkk?

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yesterday is 23/7/2010

my love, jay's 2010 concert in sg

very sad

i missed the chance to meet him again :(

i love his talent very much

i cant find any1 more talented than him

jus now lunch wit auntie cham

she said i "immoralize" him

oh please~~~

i m not k~~~

u can see his fingers flying on the keyboard gracefully

tats wat my piano teacher taught but i still cant make it

i noe how hard it is

he is different, creative and attractive!

i hope i can hav a chance to watch and listen jay playing a piece in front of me

i wont ask for more than this

this is enough

si er wu han

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if i din remember wrongly 3 yrs before the same day

is the 1st day i stepped in my uni life

i really noe alot of friends thru the camp

i really appreciate it

next week is ntu convo, happy graduation ah all my seniors

(especially qw SENIOR, i noe u ll see this :p)

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time flies

3 yrs in ntu is fast yet slow

many things happened

and many things hav been forgotten by me

i tot i onli remember those happiness and forgot every sadness

tats y i live happily

since a deep talk wit zoe

i found tat it's wrong

ya, i m a good lier

i lie to every1, included myself

how pro m i~

haha~ =.=

thanks to zoe for trusting me and tell me everything

thanks to zoe for listening my "theories"

thanks to zoe for treating me as a "special" person but not "abnormal"

i noe i had changed

since something happened

well, i think it is good for me to change

at least nothing can trouble me anymore

钢铁般的心

jus like da S said in kangxi

cherish

i cherish everything i hav now

now wat i hav already more than wat should i hav...

thank you everyone

either u bring me tears or touched me

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i wish every1 ard me can stay happily

i wish i can learn more abt the world

i wish i can teach wat i learn before i left

mayb i m too ambitious

but if there is no dream in our heart, wat is the point we live in the earth?

mayb u think i become more and more insincere

but hu cares?

if my insincere can exchange every1's happiness, i ll cont'd to be

i m jus some1 can be neglected, a nobody.

COUNTING DOWN!

话说今天啊~

我收到kk的电话了终于~~~

两个礼拜前我MC好了就跟他讲了

然后他supervisor on leave一个礼拜

然后轮到他chicken pox一个礼拜MC

命运弄人啊~~~

不过呢~~~

现在我终于可以回答大家啦~~~

我6/8/2010 LAST DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!

真的等到我已经没有很兴奋了>.<"

马上sms给阿芳姐姐

maybe可能或许应该我8/8回新山！

回我家！我有我爸爸妈妈的家！！！

虽然这不到20天的时间我要搬两次家有点什么什么的

不过没关系

最后我可以回到jb meet mcs的各位就好了

刚飞回来要飞回去的ah bang猴子

多一个月就要飞美国留学的奶妈

去台湾逍遥很久的香

还有毕业了可是我没得参加他的convo的羊

等等等~

一定一定要见到你们啦~~

ntu的朋友不要讲讲真的来到这里我开始觉得我真的相信我这三年并没有白混

不管是不是因为他很得空还是要感谢的cheahao

帮我跑spms office的mingrui

远在土耳其还记得msn我的xiaoxin

之前无聊一直kacau的huaibao （还有我的诸位跑步友）etc

还有姐妹们等等等我都很想念（电脑很lag大家都包含在"等等等""etc"里面啦~）

还有我妈妈的养生汤果汁

爸爸到处打包的jj美食

在这里每次午餐省钱吃饼干被kuzaini说我是cookies monster>.<"

他和meiyen也各买过一次tart给我害我乱感动的:'(

真的我一定要找机会和各位师傅们合照留念

因为我觉得我99.999999999%不会回去了>.<"

好啦我的电脑真的很lag了

就打到这里了

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要不要买苹果咬一口啊？

veryvery cui了啊我的lapii~~~~

病了

其实昨天已经开始头痛了

今天早上醒来还是头痛+肚子痛+胸口痛

不是上吐下泻

是想上吐下泻却吐不出泻不出

头又在那里痛痛痛

还是决定去上班

因为出门的时候还忍得

而且这种痛来痛去的东西

很容易被当成装病

我又不想看医生……

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结果在LRT上我就顶不顺了~

只好硬着头皮去公司再说~

最后大概11点

我就回了

老板说改次生病直接不要来

哎

不懂要怎样跟他解释

要说我有被诬赖"装病"的阴影吗？

讨厌头痛

头痛不止只有自己知道几痛

有些庸医也医不了

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刚刚睡了一下午的觉

结果好像发烧了

完蛋

现在再回去睡咯……

明天不懂要不要去上班>.<"