心寒

我不想看到
你安慰他的场景

不是什么
我知道他很重要所以为了不让他伤心所以安慰

也许我该闭嘴

现在很心寒
在你安慰他的同时，可有发现到这间接伤了我？
在你称赞他的同时，可有发现到这间接在说我不够好？

不努力并不代表懒惰
只是不想付出心力后得到的却只有心寒

还记得吗？

今天回学校
好久不见的学校
也不知道我在眷恋什么
只知道今天心情放松好多好多

以前再忙也是忙得开心
现在，看到堆积如山的tasks一个都不想动

很开心曾经有过的"天真"、“无忧无虑”
也许宽中生不比kl的人现实
可是就是那份感情、那份怀有梦想的心，让人觉得这个世界上还是有希望的

密不透风的保护网破洞了

好害怕

再压抑下去

我会不会疯掉

就让它痛下去吧

刚刚去看了中医……
他竟然把脉就知道我的病~

hrm讲真等的时候我一直怀疑会浪费钱又找了庸医……
也许是时候学会相信人了吧？

很多东西其实我比别人还明白为什么
只是我真的没有办法让你相信我的说法
也许我真的是个怪ka

我真的把自己绷得太紧了

可是我没有办法不这么做

我也不明白

这几天不知道为什么这么emo...
总觉得上天好不公平

有的人心里的血就快流干了没人发现
有的人只是皱了皱眉头却好像世界末日要来了
大家都争先恐后想抚平那稍微弯了点的眉头

不知道是对我归类成的"好朋友"要求特别严苛
还是我真的无法忍受被误会
抑或是，我依然没有办法好好的控制我的情绪……

做人真的好难好难
至少对我而言是这样子的

那个点，平衡点
怎么这么难找？

好想被了解，却又害怕被看穿……

i knew but i can't

mayb wat ling said is true
should find somebody to acc...

but sorry to myself,
i haven't prepared now

or i should say,
i still can't open my heart now

can i cry?

now onli 12pm
but really many things happened...
pekcek

i m stupid, else i wont lost my cards
i m stupid, i should show the officer my police report not yiwei jpn can "link" with police's record (mayb i should improve my malay = = )
i m stupid, i should report as robbed not lost......

i hate being misunderstood
the onli thing ll make me lost control and cry

i still hav to pay for matric card replacement and my laptop
i m not a rich person k?
if u r poor then i muz be a beggar!

3 more working days

many things happened during my last 2 weeks in uobm and wangsa maju...
suddenly i felt the time went fast
maybe i shouldn't back so fast
but i noe it's time for me to back

i really meet a lot of ppls
yup, i came alone
so everyone is new to me

most of them are nice
but i noe i wont hav chanve to meet them already
somes called this "guo4 ke4"
maybe tat's truth since i can't find any others word to replace it...

yest. my lappi died
hrm, i mean my lappi "blind" , monitor spoilt

jus now before off my boss finally "mark" my assignment and ask me to done by tml 12pm
abit pekcek why i hav submitted 1 mth now onli he wan me rush so i told him my lappi spoilt cant do at home
then when i using zoe's lappi sign in fb, boss saw me!
he used fb chat box asked me why i can online=="

walamak
the moral of my story is, dun add boss in ur fb=="

nothing much to say in this post actually
too much things happened and i lazy to type already
very tired now
going to sleep

good night and see you everyone