i knew but i can't

mayb wat ling said is true
should find somebody to acc...

but sorry to myself,
i haven't prepared now

or i should say,
i still can't open my heart now

can i cry?

now onli 12pm
but really many things happened...
pekcek

i m stupid, else i wont lost my cards
i m stupid, i should show the officer my police report not yiwei jpn can "link" with police's record (mayb i should improve my malay = = )
i m stupid, i should report as robbed not lost......

i hate being misunderstood
the onli thing ll make me lost control and cry

i still hav to pay for matric card replacement and my laptop
i m not a rich person k?
if u r poor then i muz be a beggar!

3 more working days

many things happened during my last 2 weeks in uobm and wangsa maju...
suddenly i felt the time went fast
maybe i shouldn't back so fast
but i noe it's time for me to back

i really meet a lot of ppls
yup, i came alone
so everyone is new to me

most of them are nice
but i noe i wont hav chanve to meet them already
somes called this "guo4 ke4"
maybe tat's truth since i can't find any others word to replace it...

yest. my lappi died
hrm, i mean my lappi "blind" , monitor spoilt

jus now before off my boss finally "mark" my assignment and ask me to done by tml 12pm
abit pekcek why i hav submitted 1 mth now onli he wan me rush so i told him my lappi spoilt cant do at home
then when i using zoe's lappi sign in fb, boss saw me!
he used fb chat box asked me why i can online=="

walamak
the moral of my story is, dun add boss in ur fb=="

nothing much to say in this post actually
too much things happened and i lazy to type already
very tired now
going to sleep

good night and see you everyone

i wish i m an angel

sometimes i really feel that i m bad, very bad

in chinese i ll say is 邪恶

although i already tried to make myself become wiser

but sometimes, especially for those i care, i cant control my emotion anymore...

i really hope that i hav no heart

no feeling, no sadness, no happiness...

mayb tat ll be good for every1 included me...

mayb u dun noe me well may think tat i m quite ok

but i noe myself

although an angel has started growing up in my heart

the evil still alive

i really cant chase the evil away

mayb i jus tat evil

the moral i learnt, the unfair reality. So CRUEL!

watching pao mo zhi xia...

i really indulged in it...

i noe, ou chen also lack of love

but wat he caused when he fight for his love?

well, mayb u ll tell me love cannot be shared

but i really cant accept his selfishness

for his own satisfactory, he make how many people in great pain?

i like luo xi

mayb is jus because of sympathy

but xia mo love luo xi, luo xi love xia mo

i saw xia mo smile from her heart when getting along with luo xi but not ou chen

y?

i really hope that the ending i found is not true

but since i watched till episode 9

the probability become lower and lower :'(

really really stunned when i first read the ending

really really feel sad for them when i first read the ending

i feel wanna cry

if the P1 WIMAX is not so LOUSY i sure will cry

should i thank to P1???!!!

i dun wan luo xi leave

why reality is so unfair?

why he did nothing wrong but still have to suffer so much?

arhhhhhhhhh

i really wanna cry liao

cry for my luo xi T.T

can any1 go save his life?

nobody

now my lapii hot like hell

even typing english lack like snail

forgive my poor english and bear wit it kkk?

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yesterday is 23/7/2010

my love, jay's 2010 concert in sg

very sad

i missed the chance to meet him again :(

i love his talent very much

i cant find any1 more talented than him

jus now lunch wit auntie cham

she said i "immoralize" him

oh please~~~

i m not k~~~

u can see his fingers flying on the keyboard gracefully

tats wat my piano teacher taught but i still cant make it

i noe how hard it is

he is different, creative and attractive!

i hope i can hav a chance to watch and listen jay playing a piece in front of me

i wont ask for more than this

this is enough

si er wu han

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if i din remember wrongly 3 yrs before the same day

is the 1st day i stepped in my uni life

i really noe alot of friends thru the camp

i really appreciate it

next week is ntu convo, happy graduation ah all my seniors

(especially qw SENIOR, i noe u ll see this :p)

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time flies

3 yrs in ntu is fast yet slow

many things happened

and many things hav been forgotten by me

i tot i onli remember those happiness and forgot every sadness

tats y i live happily

since a deep talk wit zoe

i found tat it's wrong

ya, i m a good lier

i lie to every1, included myself

how pro m i~

haha~ =.=

thanks to zoe for trusting me and tell me everything

thanks to zoe for listening my "theories"

thanks to zoe for treating me as a "special" person but not "abnormal"

i noe i had changed

since something happened

well, i think it is good for me to change

at least nothing can trouble me anymore

钢铁般的心

jus like da S said in kangxi

cherish

i cherish everything i hav now

now wat i hav already more than wat should i hav...

thank you everyone

either u bring me tears or touched me

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i wish every1 ard me can stay happily

i wish i can learn more abt the world

i wish i can teach wat i learn before i left

mayb i m too ambitious

but if there is no dream in our heart, wat is the point we live in the earth?

mayb u think i become more and more insincere

but hu cares?

if my insincere can exchange every1's happiness, i ll cont'd to be

i m jus some1 can be neglected, a nobody.

COUNTING DOWN!

话说今天啊~

我收到kk的电话了终于~~~

两个礼拜前我MC好了就跟他讲了

然后他supervisor on leave一个礼拜

然后轮到他chicken pox一个礼拜MC

命运弄人啊~~~

不过呢~~~

现在我终于可以回答大家啦~~~

我6/8/2010 LAST DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!

真的等到我已经没有很兴奋了>.<"

马上sms给阿芳姐姐

maybe可能或许应该我8/8回新山！

回我家！我有我爸爸妈妈的家！！！

虽然这不到20天的时间我要搬两次家有点什么什么的

不过没关系

最后我可以回到jb meet mcs的各位就好了

刚飞回来要飞回去的ah bang猴子

多一个月就要飞美国留学的奶妈

去台湾逍遥很久的香

还有毕业了可是我没得参加他的convo的羊

等等等~

一定一定要见到你们啦~~

ntu的朋友不要讲讲真的来到这里我开始觉得我真的相信我这三年并没有白混

不管是不是因为他很得空还是要感谢的cheahao

帮我跑spms office的mingrui

远在土耳其还记得msn我的xiaoxin

之前无聊一直kacau的huaibao （还有我的诸位跑步友）etc

还有姐妹们等等等我都很想念（电脑很lag大家都包含在"等等等""etc"里面啦~）

还有我妈妈的养生汤果汁

爸爸到处打包的jj美食

在这里每次午餐省钱吃饼干被kuzaini说我是cookies monster>.<"

他和meiyen也各买过一次tart给我害我乱感动的:'(

真的我一定要找机会和各位师傅们合照留念

因为我觉得我99.999999999%不会回去了>.<"

好啦我的电脑真的很lag了

就打到这里了

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要不要买苹果咬一口啊？

veryvery cui了啊我的lapii~~~~

病了

其实昨天已经开始头痛了

今天早上醒来还是头痛+肚子痛+胸口痛

不是上吐下泻

是想上吐下泻却吐不出泻不出

头又在那里痛痛痛

还是决定去上班

因为出门的时候还忍得

而且这种痛来痛去的东西

很容易被当成装病

我又不想看医生……

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结果在LRT上我就顶不顺了~

只好硬着头皮去公司再说~

最后大概11点

我就回了

老板说改次生病直接不要来

哎

不懂要怎样跟他解释

要说我有被诬赖"装病"的阴影吗？

讨厌头痛

头痛不止只有自己知道几痛

有些庸医也医不了

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刚刚睡了一下午的觉

结果好像发烧了

完蛋

现在再回去睡咯……

明天不懂要不要去上班>.<"

魂呢

今天真的不知道是怎样
早上醒来发现手表不见了
找啊找
找不到

就想算了先去公司先

拿出电话要sms问看chitpei有没有不小心拿到
结果才发现电话快没电了

haiz
一直在想到底我的手表会在哪里
结果理九杯就这样从我手上滑了下来

也不知道那时的我是在做什么
现在回想起来那个杯掉下去的速度很慢
可是我却呆在那里眼睁睁看它掉下去然后"锵"一声碎了一地

pantry里面的人都听到了
因为我小小声惊呼了一声（真的是小小声，因为不止小声而且我的手还不由自主地捂住了我的嘴）
也是因为案发地点就在pantry外面一步而已

里面有一个男的（我忘记他名字了他不是我team的，只记得他桌上很多用完了的订书钉盒还有手上写着天干地支的手表）
他就说去拿扫把扫

我想那时的我是想留点碎片吧
也没听他的就蹲下去捡

过后就看到有人在扫碎片
然后我就站了起来
然后他叫我把手上的碎片丢下去
我就丢了

回到我的位子后
有点小后悔为什么不要留一点什么

jithean说我已经很幸运了有衣服穿、有冷气吹、有手有脚还有internet上
huiping说每天存一毛钱，3年我就可以买回那只手表了，就当作我这3年每天掉一毛咯~

哈
他们的安慰方式真是特别^^"

杯破了，没办法了haiz
电话没电，回来charge一下就有电了

手表呢？话说那是爸爸在我来ntu前买给我的
我真的不知道它会掉去哪里……
它就这样在这小小的房间蒸发了……

没有很难过
什么感觉都没有现在
只希望明天醒来手表就像往常那样躺在桌上……

我自己也觉得太超过了

刚刚看完金曲奖

我以为杰伦和江蕙合颁最佳女歌手

结果看到江蕙一个人出来整个显掉

结果颁最佳专辑的时候

他和a mit一起出来了！

omg

我一个人在房间忍不住尖叫了~>.<"

对不起我承认我很夸张

可是真的是control不到

我真的小小声尖叫了~

可是他真的

只讲一点点话

然后就没了

星光大道也没有走

haiz

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话说我昨天和chitpei去neway

看到电视上播着免费教学录影带

我竟然心跳加速

跟chitpei讲结果她吓到

完了我

请敲醒我！

要不然，请赐予我一个多才多艺的才子！<---做梦中>.<"

从头痛到脚的游牧民族

哎呀~~
我真的分不清什么是肚子痛跟经痛~~

谁可以教教我啊？haiz
而且我今天还加买头痛是怎样~~~

真的很想建议女生每个月工作3个星期~~
头痛肚子痛真的让我整个人精神不起来>.<"

[下面那段我自己在幻想可以略过不看>.<"]

不过如果真的是这样我看没有人要请女生了~

已经有产假(60 days?)、结婚假(uob有啦我不懂其他地方有没有，一个月)、病假(30days)、annual leave(21days?)[<----那天我们还讨论过请到完真的不用做工了一年XD]

每个星期五早一个小时放工，每个月可以选一天早一个小时放工~(omg~越算越好命~~~>.<")

现在还要来每个月少做一个礼拜真是异想天开==

（oh我竟然忘记算malaysia最多的public holidays o.0）

[上面那段我自己在幻想可以略过不看>.<"]

话刚说到这里头又痛了（肚子一直在痛:( ）
刚刚还不小心拉到脚筋现在脚痛到要死 （我可以take leave吗老板？T.T）
应该是每天穿"矮"跟鞋然后又走快快的下场T.T

好啦我要去睡了

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难道我是游牧民族？

一个任性的人

傻萱好像不是以前的傻萱了……
深深的觉得……

对傻萱失望的人
她只能对他们说声抱歉了
她也没有办法啊

虽然说变了
可是唯一没有变的就是很任性的想做什么就放胆去做(嗯，应该还有对杰伦的心^^)
可是(又可是？)想说什么却不再敢说了……

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人与人之间的缘分
真的是要天时地利人和
尤其是对那种心情变幻莫测的人（没错就是在说这个blog的主人=.=）

除了不好意思她也不懂要怎么办啦……
已经很努力提高EQ中了@@"

重大发现

重大发现~~~
公司没有block我的blog~~~

hiak hiak~~~
真是开心~~~
弥补我上不到facebook的遗憾>.<"

还有45分钟就到我的weekends咯~~~
倒数中……

小小的改变

hehe~~看到别人的blog有like我也要有~^^

改来改去

决定加两个就好(share和like)

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haha~

发现到自己edit html真的很有成就感~~

第二次了~~~

wow~~~

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来个"我like"吧~~不记名字滴:D

总务簿

不知不觉现在已经11点了

昏~

我的时间真的是拿来浪费的==

突然想到以前在会所无所事事

就去翻总务簿来看（我看只有我酱无聊去看==）

不看还好

一看就笑死我

通常大家都是写借什么什么，然后在用途那边写"用"

这个程度已经笑死我了

结果我看到更劲爆的，借篮球——打

XD

更积极地翻下去

借雨伞——遮！

哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈

一整天真的是笑到不行

我一定有推荐给旁边的人看

只是我忘记了其实

现在想到还是觉得很好笑

MCS的人也太幽默了beh~~~

哦

我为什么会联想到总务簿？

因为我的时间的用途是浪费啊！

我也是很幽默hor? XD